When I plugged my phone in to upload some photos today one of the oldest photos on my phone caught my eye.
It’s a picture that I took at the very end of my time with a previous trainer who I stopped working with 3 years ago.
It was the prime example of dieting gone bad. Way too much cardio, very little food, absolutely NO variety and extreme exhaustion.
But hey… my weight was at the lowest it had EVER been, so something had to be working right?
Umm… I was a mess, emotional, physically, mentally. It was all falling apart and promptly after ending my time with this trainer I rebounded hard. What I had “achieved” was not reasonable by any stretch of the imagination.
At the time I beat myself up… during every binge I would pop this photo up on my laptop and sit there sobbing over why I couldn’t maintain that. Why it was so hard, why couldn’t I be naturally lean and “healthy looking” like that.
Now I look at that photo and see skinny fat. I wasted away precious muscle I had spent so long building up. I was flabby, loose skin and feeling like complete garbage on the regular.
At the time that photo was taken I weighed exactly the same thing I do now. That number is forever stuck in my mind and haunts me as the “unattainable”. Yet here I sit at that number, doing way less cardio, eating oats, eggs and *gasp* DAIRY.
I feel strong, healthy and insanely happy with my progress and my life.
Weight training and proper nutrition make ALL the difference. Yes you obviously have to take in less calories than you need to lose fat, but if you do it properly you won’t end up feeling like crap at the end.
Maybe it’s not as obvious to everyone else… since A LOT of how I feel on this is mental and physical…
In the old photo I’m squishy, soft, lots of loose skin, no definition… Always ah… sucking it in.
… if you know what I mean.
I will also point out in the “before” I was a size four.
I am now a 00… or an excessively comfortable 0.
At the exact.same.weight.
Um hello. Cray cray much people?!
I think I’ll take my banana oats, cookies and cream greek yogurt and “low intensity steady state” cardio over murdering my joints doing HIIT for days on end and living off chicken and green beans.
… .Although green beans would be tasty. Hmmm.
What matters to you? Being “skinny” or being healthy?
… and how much are you willing to risk to get there if you chose skinny?