I’m just going to toss this out there and be 100% honest right now.
I feel calm.
Like… really calm.
And the more I realize this, the more I notice this about myself, the more it kind of freaks me out.
Every other peak week I have been… frazzled. A hot mess if you will. Running constant errands, planning, prepping, making lists, making last minute changes and comparing notes with myself, making sure I had everything completely in order.
Funny thing is, every other prep my LIFE has been frazzled too. A messy apartment, sink full of dishes, clothes everywhere, way too much on my mind.
This time around?
Clean, clutter free and a symbol for my life in general. While everything is in transition I moved into a very low maintenance lifestyle and it’s helped calm me down and make me feel like everything is in order.
My show bag is double checked and packed. A few treats and all the “extras” i need to bring show day are bought. My chicken is cooked for Saturday and in the freezer.
Life is streamlined. I’ve completely taken the guess work out and having everything prepped and planned means I can sit back, enjoy this week and savor everything I’ve accomplished.
So far peak week is completely on track. My body is reacting exactly how it should be (according to Joe), my plan hasn’t had the last minute changes it’s always had before and I’m sitting exactly where I wanted to be sitting.
It’s crazy, it’s exciting, it’s… reassuring.
Everything I have done in the last six months has led to this week and I can very happily say there is not one thing I regret, not one workout, one early bedtime, one achy muscle. I put my heart and soul into this and now it’s time to enjoy the ride through the final four days.
It seems like the last 6 months has gone by so slowly… yet so fast. Peak week showed up out of nowhere and I’m a bundle of emotions that I kind of suck at expressing. I know right now I feel good and calm… but who knows what the rest of the week will bring.
I’m beyond thankfully that Lisa convinced me to start this blog almost a full year ago as it has helped me open up, get my feelings out and really reach my full potential thanks to the AMAZING support system I’ve found through blogging.
Nini @ the Fine Balance will be competing WITH ME in the IDFA show, as well as doing the show earlier in the day SAF.
Tenecia @ Boobs, Barbells and Broccoli and Ana @ Fit, Fun and Delish will also be competing together at the NPC Terminator! (… please please please let me have got that show name right. Correct me if I”m wrong ladies!)
Getting on stage whether it’s your first like Ana or Nini or … not your first like T and I is a huge deal so send some love, cheers and huge encouragement their way becuase they rock and are a huge inspiration to me!
… carrying along…
I only have TWO days left at work and Friday is going to be so so nice. Quickie workout, mani/pedi, last meal prep and relaxing. With no athletes meeting to attend Friday night I feel so chill about the day and can’t wait to enjoy it rather than spend it checking my watch to make sure I’m on time.
So there you have it… the ramblings of a 4 day out competitor…. who is scaring herself with how calm she is.
It’s a great kind of scary if I do say so myself!
Do you get nervous before a competition/race/etc?!
Do you feel better about everything when your life is clutter free?