Ahhhh. I officially feel “back to normal”.
Well, in the blogging sense anyway!
Someone else who feels normal?
Yeah, he’s settled in pretty well. There have been a few standoffs between him and the girls. Obviously there is a bit of hissing and growling, but for the most part, it’s really just them circling and checking out the new guy.
… for those who asked.
My two old lady cats. We got them when I was in the sixth grade (please don’t make me feel old by doing the math on that) and well, old, cranky and have always been “only cats”. Everyone assumed black cat (yes, that’s her name now) would be the worst, but it’s actually queen snot, fat cat, who is putting up the biggest fuss. Go figure. If anything he lays back and watches them get snippy at each other. My mom likens him to a drunk, he gets out of control, starts trouble and then sits back and laughs while everyone else fights.
So whenever I’m home the Fritz has free range of the house, but he’s still getting shut up in my room with me overnight…. just in case! But really, I thought he’d be segregated to my room indefinitely so this is huge. I’m really happy it’s been such an easy transition for him. I almost don’t believe it!
My first few days at home were… tough food wise.
There is ALWAYS some form of unhealthy junk around and knowing I’m in offseason makes me think I can go ahead and indulge. But I’m realizing I need to stop and keep it to my high day. While I know I’m still small, haven’t gained very much weight it’s still hard mentally to go from stage to sporadic workouts, eating through my apartment and moving.
It’s really just getting back into a routine so I feel much better in my bikini when I visit places like this:
So I am of course being proactive…. I have joined a gym (… and got a MEGA deal, which I’ll talk more about later), I have access to a treadmill at home and have some big plans and big goals going on in my head.
… and most importantly, I emailed you know who.
Hopefully by the end of the day today I will have a full on plan in place with macros to continue backing out and going into maintenance, cardio guidelines to get me to my goal and yeah… just the reassurance everything will be okay.
Once it’s all sorted out I WILL be doing a August goals post. Time to put everything in writing, in blog land so I’m accountable, even if it’s only to myself. Without a show coming up it’s easy to feel lost and I want to kick this in the butt before it gets too easy to slack off and forget all my hard work.
So even though I realize I’m struggling…. I am optimistic…. and excited… for what’s to come for me.
I think being able to blog again… from a computer…. and just get everything out there will be a huge help. It’s funny I knew I was enjoying blogging, but until it was out of reach I didn’t realize how therapeutic it is to get all my randomness out on paper. Who knew?
Have you ever felt a bit lost with your goals?
Do you feel blogging helps you get it all out? To make plans and goals?