This morning I went to the gym.
Really, no big shock there.
It was shoulder day and things were moving along. I was *hoping* to get 50’s up for presses by my head wasn’t there and I struggled with the 45’s. You win some, you lose some right? Sadly with shoulder press it’s allll mental for me and if I’m not 100% it’s just not going to happen.
… and it didn’t. There is always Friday. I’ll get there, I’m not too worried about it.
Oddly it was packed at my usual time. I guess it’s Monday? Need to work off the weekend or something?
I guess so. In the crowd was “the” local figure trainer.
Towards the end of my workout he approached me and asked if I competed. Random a bit, but okay, ego boost? yeah. I’ll go with that.
I opened my mouth to say my usual response “I did, but I’m retired now”… but that’s not what came out. What did come out?
…. “Yes, I’m 2 months into offseason”
What? Huh!? Offseason?
Where did THAT come from?
I have admittedly worked my way from “retired” to “semi-retired”… but am I really ready to make that jump. To 100% commit myself to mid May… I dust off the hooker heels and think about picking up a new suit?
Clearly there are a lot of factors involved, you know, finding a job being at the top of the list.
But the more I think about it, the more I sit on my butt and do nothing… the more I think I need to get on stage again.
I guess I just don’t feel like I’m “done”…. maybe I never will be done, but I’m still young… do I want that top 5? Do I just want to keep going on my goals… I dont know.
I really don’t know.
There is a lot to consider, a lot to think about and a lot of work to be done.
So while I don’t think I’ve completely jumped from semi-retired to official offseason mentality… I am training my ass off and we shall see how the cards play out.