True: I used to be obese
False: Becoming healthy was easy and happened overnight
True: My lifestyle changes took years to develop and become habit and dare I say… enjoyable
False: I never had to work hard to look like I do
While I’m an open book when it comes to my blog and if people ask, I don’t hide my past…. but I definitely don’t walk around blah blah blahing about my weight loss, lifestyle changes, or the shell of a person I once was.
None of this happened overnight. I first lost weight in the 9th grade and until I was 24 or so I was a hot mess.
I yo-yo dieted, I did too much cardio, I did no cardio, I ate nothing but apples with PB and kraft dinner, I lifted heavy, I drank a lot, I hated myself.
An overnight change this was not. In the beginning every single day was a struggle. When I first committed to prep, which is when I feel I finally began to control my life instead of letting my disorders control it, every.single.day. was a challenge. I would sit in front of the fridge with a spoon wishing and wanting to grab the tub of icecream and ate until it was empty. I wanted to skip workouts and cardio.
Every single day I had to remind myself why I was making these changes, why I was finally standing up for myself… from my inner self… and saying enough was enough. I wasn’t living and it was time to start, free from the throws of dieting and vicious cycles.
I bet you’re sitting there thinking “would you get to the damn point Becca?!”
Okay, here we go.
A lot of times people will ask me for advice. How did I do it? Was it easy? Did you just start loving vegetables and real foods?
Um no, like I said above. It was a struggle for days. For weeks. For months. Honestly, the first year was really hard and there are admittedly days when I still struggle. I think about how easy it would be to say enough is enough, I’m tired of this. I quit.
I could go back to being your regular run of the mill unhealthy, average girl who didn’t like herself, made excuses for everything that happened and never took pride in herself or her actions.
But I didn’t. And I won’t. Being healthy, having abs, running races, whatever. It’s hard work. But it’s worth it.
How many times do you click on the fitness tab on Pinterest and see bullshit like this?
So people ask for advice, I almost always give the same answer.
Commit. Do what you love. Make small changes.
Give it time and small changes can make a big impact. You know what they say, becoming unhealthy doesn’t happen overnight, why should being healthy happen overnight?
I saw this the other day and it was so fitting to how I was feeling after yet another “I gave it two whole weeks and only lost 5 lbs” type talk. This happened, I had that event, I worked late… blah blah blah.
Yes, I get that not everyone has a perfect situation, good genetics or a love for all things healthy and fit…. but you know what? My genetics suck, I love beer and relaxing on the couch and there is NEVER a perfect situation, time or place to make lifestyle changes.
You have to make time. You have to give it time. There is no quick fix. Don’t go asking your healthy and fit friends for advice over and over if you have no intentions of taking it. You and only you can make the change and be READY to make the change. Losing weight for a bf/gf, a big event, a holiday… what’s the point? It’s a temporary solution to a lifelong problem.
Do it for you, for the right reasons. To live a long and happy life. To see your kids grow up and have kids of their own. To spend your life traveling and exploring your passions, not waiting for hours in yet another doctor’s office. Do it for the way you feel and function, not for a number on a scale or pasted on the label of your jeans.
I really don’t mean to offend anyone with this post… I know we all have our struggles, but there comes a point when those struggles becoming a running excuse and it’s time to get over them and move on. Own up to who you are and who you want to be and just do it.
….and now I should shut my trap and get to bed.