Sometimes I get really frustrated.
Between blogs, Facebook and Twitter I’m bombarded with posts about competing and fitness and…. health experts.
It’s the internet afterall, everyone’s an expert right?
You need to do double cardio to get lean. Sodium/water loading and a magic pill will have you “dry” on stage. Carbs are evil. Eating less than 2000 calories is disordered.
Every time I see someone post about how they eat 2000+ calories a day and well… brag about it… I get a little sad inside. Maybe it’s just me being jealous, I know that’s a number I will never be eating (during prep… possibly offseason) but I also know what works for me and I should be okay with that. It’s really just a big comparison game and even three years into this competition thing it still gets me down sometimes.
Are these people exaggerating? Closet eating? Doing a shit ton of cardio?
Eating X amount of calories is not a badge of honor. Doing more cardio than the next person is not something to brag about. Which guru you train with means nothing if you don’t stick to the program.
Laying in bed after work last night trying to shut my brain off I found myself clicking around the blog world on my phone and well… just getting sucked into it. The self doubt, the comparison.
Should I actually be doing more cardio?
Am I eating too much? Too little?
Why can so and so do that and not me?
I needed to shut off my brain and the only way to do that was by getting my thoughts out. Totally not like me (especially at that time of night. Check the time stamp. Eek) but I opened up a new note and gave myself a saved reminder of my answer to a question I KNOW will be asked of me by Jody at least 2-3 times this prep.
And that’s it. It’s about setting goals and bettering myself. It’s not about carbs or cardio or anything else. It’s just about me, the work I put in for my workouts, the meals I prepare for myself and the goal I have to better myself everyday…. whether I step on stage or not.
Sometimes I just need that reminder.
Why do you do what you do?