Once again I thought I’d join in on the PMB trend Hollie has started. If only because I’m TWO days out and in that kind of mood.
Physical: being 2 days out I feel like I should be dragging… But I’m not. Physically this prep I have never felt better. The energy I’ve had, the fact I’ve gotten stronger while leaning out and well, the cardio sessions I’ve dreaded have even rocked.
I tried to find a progress pic from my first show, but nothing on my phone, so this works.
That’s one week out, salt and water “bloated” on the right… And the year before I started competing when I was training with a very different style on the left.
The left is also right when I started spiralling back into binge eating and gained 50lbs give or take. I was your classic “skinny fat”, clocking in at about 116lbs. I was VERY proud of that number in my disordered head.
The right is me being stronger than ever before. I have NO clue what I weigh (will weigh in tomorrow for reference), nor do I care anymore. Physically I have come so far in the last year alone, the last three is just huge.
Yesterday I took off my shirt to practice posing then promptly sat back down and cried. Why? Abs. I have abs. I never never looked like this before and can’t believe it.
Mental: This is where the title comes into play. While doing the dishes this morning I heard a line in a song that really stuck out to me.
get on out of your head, and into your heart
That about sums up my thoughts right now. I’m turning off my brain that says I’m not good enough, I’m not ready, so and so looks better than me, etc.
It’s time to listen to my heart.
I’ve worked my ass off
I committed to a plan and followed through 100%
I didn’t sacrifice health for looks
I deserve to step on stage knowing I’m better than ever before.
Brag: I can’t resist this one.
If you think the everyday normal show tan is orange and totally guidette looking…
( which it totally is)
Tonight I’m level 3 versa tanning… And doing it again in the morning.
Yes, it snowed last night but I’m about to look like snooki without the extensions and sneaker slippers.
I know you’re all jealous. Don’t be hating (… Except maybe on the fact I’m funding my tanning with coupons!)
… Two days. I.am.excited.