There’s been a lot of back and forth with Jody this last week…. And a detailed conversation with a teammate over Facebook… And a brain dump on a friend…. And even more internal dialog going on.
You’re welcome for sparing you the crazy.
In the end, I decided to stop debating, follow my heart, and my head.
I’m not going to be on stage at Atlantics in April. For me, it’s not where I belong (right now, maybe ever). I don’t have enough size. Honestly, I could take 5 years off to build and probably still wouldn’t be big enough. Genetics are a bitch…. Being a natural athlete in such a sport doesn’t help my cause either.
There is a lot more behind this decision than just my current size, but it’s things like politics and personal opinions that I choose not to discuss on the blog. So we will leave that at that.
Even knowing I have a long way to go to reach MY ideal and goals I am still choosing to get back on stage next spring. Just with a different organization that I feel will be a better fit for me now and as I continue to grow as an athlete.
… It’s an organization I said from the beginning I would never compete in, yet here I am actually full on excited for show day. It’s 100% different than the cut and dry figure stage I’ve been on with the Idfa and cbbf.
May 25 I step on stage in Halifax with the wbff.
… Get ready for the crazy that’s bound to follow.