I’ve posted my may goals here… And even briefly mentioned them in a Facebook post for Blueprint.
I’ve typed it in an email to Jody and I’ve even said it out loud to the bf.
… But to anyone else?
A simple “yup, competing again. Wbff Halifax in may”. That’s it that’s all.
The past two days I’ve seen another guy who competes at the gym who showed up mid cardio. Conversation day 1 was “you look like you’re dying”, day 2 he happened to be leaving as I started my cool down so he stopped to say hi.
We chit chatted about the upcoming season, plans, etc and before I knew it “top three placing” came out of my mouth.
I didn’t get a “that’s nice, you’re the fat kid becca. Give up now” response, it was simply a good job, you’re busting your ass, good luck.
There was no negativity from him, why was I allowing saying this goal out loud to be negative in my head?
Lets be honest, the number of people who read this blog that I know in real life is very few, posting a goal here is truth, but if I don’t achieve it well… It’s almost like my dirty little secret.
When I talked to the bf about how freaked out saying it out loud maybe he had some wonderful words of wisdom which I’m sure he’s going to need to remind me of several times over the next 14.5 weeks.
Saying a goal out loud completely commits you to it.
Say the goal out loud, live it, believe it. Act like you’ve already won a medal
Basically… When show day comes the only question you’ll have is what color medal you walk away with (… Metaphorically, we don’t really do the whole gold/silver/bronze thing in my sport… )
Outwardly I rarely to never relate to or mention my past. I am who I am now. Yes, I realize I am who I am because of my past, but I don’t let what shaped me, define me. Why should I be allowing it to influence my mindset?
I train everyday like nothing can stop me, the switch to a 100% committed prep diet was flicked and there’s no turning back… There is no room in my head for self doubt and excuses.
Yes, saying this goal out loud is frightening, but it’s time to stop allowing myself to think that I’m only competing for fun and to do it. I want to be the best version of me possible, and I know deep down I have the potential to be a top three athlete… It’s time to make sure everyone else knows it to.